Chapter 40
Gu Wan didn\'t even think he truly needed something like love. She believed it was just that things had happened too suddenly, and he couldn\'t accept it for the time being. After some time, when he calmed down, he wouldn\'t feel there was anything wrong.
He already possessed wealth and status that ordinary people could never hope to achieve. Wasn\'t that enough?
Even without all this love and romance, it wasn\'t a big deal.
"You\'ll be fine once you calm down," Gu Wan said, almost cruelly, with nothing but a hint of sympathy and nothing more.
Lu Yu began to tremble, almost uncontrollably.
How could it be fine? How could it possibly be fine?
"I\'m human, I\'m human too!" he cried out.
Even if it wasn\'t much, just a little bit, even a little would be enough...
But now, she was even stingy with this little bit.
Gu Wan just frowned at him, as if looking at an unreasonable child. At this moment, she was probably thinking, why was he so greedy?
But was asking for just this little bit really considered greed?
Lu Yu suddenly thought of a possibility and couldn\'t help but reach out to grasp her arm tightly, his gaze filled with pleading: "I\'m sorry, I know I was wrong. Please don\'t treat me like this, okay?"
However, Gu Wan couldn\'t understand what he was saying. Her brows furrowed even more as she looked at him in confusion.
After a while, she tentatively spoke up: "Are you talking about what happened before I lost my memory?"
"Are you referring to when I loved you before, but you didn\'t love me?"
At this moment, Lu Yu would rather she was deliberately taking revenge on him.
Lu Yu never knew that Gu Wan\'s beautiful and enchanting voice could one day be sharper than a knife, able to pierce deeply into his flesh.
He heard her say clearly and distinctly: "But what\'s wrong with not loving someone? If not loving someone is also a mistake, then that would be too unreasonable."
It\'s not like in this world, if you love someone, that person must love you back. Such a rule simply doesn\'t exist.
"Back then, when I decided to like you, to fall in love with you, it was ultimately my own decision. Since it was my decision, whatever the outcome, I should be the one to bear it," Gu Wan wasn\'t so terrible as to blame him.
"You just didn\'t love me. You weren\'t wrong, and it wasn\'t your fault."
She said this seriously and clearly.
Lu Yu understood, and his tone became extremely bitter: "So, you also think that it doesn\'t matter if you can\'t love me again, right?"
Gu Wan nodded: "Yes."
It wasn\'t his fault, and even less so hers. Liking someone or not simply had no right or wrong.
...
Crack.
Lu Yu seemed to hear something shattering, collapsing.
"But I don\'t accept it, you can\'t do this to me!" Lu Yu knew his expression must be extremely twisted at this moment, but he no longer cared.
"I admit I realized too late, but, but—" Gradually, Lu Yu\'s voice seemed to carry a hint of choked sobs.
"Please... don\'t do this..."
However, Gu Wan hesitated, and finally slowly and unequivocally withdrew her hand.
"Calm down a bit. You\'re just like this because you\'ve suddenly received a shock. After a few days, no, maybe after a good night\'s sleep, you\'ll be fine..."
Her rationality and calmness contrasted sharply with his loss of composure and frenzy.
Because she couldn\'t understand, everything seemed so trivial to her. At this moment, she even felt that his trembling body and the redness in his eyes were inconsequential.
Lu Yu finally lost control completely and spoke: "I love you."
When these three words were actually spoken, it didn\'t seem so difficult after all.
Originally, such a thing should have happened on a sunny afternoon, surrounded by a azure sky and beautiful, vibrant flowers, not like now, being used as a last lifeline.
"It\'s not because I\'ve been shocked, and it\'s not because of anything else. Please believe me..."
Lu Yu explained messily, trying to move the woman before him.
Gu Wan suddenly felt that after saying so much, divorce was indeed the best choice.
So Gu Wan repeated what she had just said.
Lu Yu\'s pleading voice came to an abrupt halt.
Gu Wan continued to analyze calmly: "I think this is the best choice. I know myself, I\'m not that capable. Even if I pretend, I can\'t keep it up for long. I can be certain that I can\'t meet your requirements. If we drag it out, we\'re bound to have conflicts and end up tormenting each other. Neither of us wants that, so there\'s no need to wait until that point to make a decision. It\'s better to make the decision now while things are still okay."
"Especially since your father has just tried every means to take away your stocks. If there are problems on my end as well, even you would probably be in a mess for a while."
Of course, Gu Wan wasn\'t being completely kind-hearted, but she felt that even if Lu Yu had to buy back the stocks from her at a high price, he wouldn\'t lose out.
"Considering you\'re not a bad person, I\'ll give you a good deal..." Gu Wan even had the mood to joke and tease.
However, as she spoke, Gu Wan noticed that there seemed to be no movement beside her. She looked up and saw Lu Yu staring at her, his gaze as if he were looking at something that terrified him.
In Lu Yu\'s eyes, Gu Wan\'s mouth kept opening and closing, the words she uttered hitting his heart one after another.
Being stared at like this, Gu Wan stumbled a bit: "Uh... if you\'re not that liquid right now, we can sign a contract for installment payments."
"If you\'re in a hurry, I remember there\'s a printer upstairs. You don\'t need to worry at all. With your worth, there will definitely be many, many people who will love you in the future..."
Before Gu Wan could finish speaking, she saw Lu Yu suddenly take two steps back. As he retreated, he revealed a smile that looked worse than crying.
"...I\'m sorry, it\'s my problem," he said.
"I won\'t mention this matter again in the future."
"Just pretend I never asked, and nothing ever happened."
Even if it was a false peace, it didn\'t matter anymore.
He shouldn\'t have brought it up just now.
Lu Yu\'s voice became blurred and broken.
After saying this, afraid of hearing any more terrible words from her mouth, Lu Yu didn\'t even dare to wait for Gu Wan to react. He stumbled and quickly went upstairs.
Gu Wan felt that Lu Yu was being a bit too stubborn. Wasn\'t it a very good deal? She didn\'t understand why his reaction was so intense.
Gu Wan thought he would regret it sooner or later, so she didn\'t take his refusal to heart. She felt it would be better to print out the divorce agreement with the printer first.
People are all like this, initially resistant, but gradually they come around.
But when Gu Wan went upstairs, she found that the printer in the study had broken down at some point and couldn\'t be used at all.
And just two short hours later, Lu Yu, who had been somewhat frantic earlier, was back to normal as if nothing had happened.
His previous arguments and pleas seemed to have been forcibly erased, as if those dozens of minutes had never existed.
It was then that Gu Wan gradually began to believe that the "love" he spoke of might be real.
But...
"Why do you want to torment yourself like this?" Gu Wan had just solved one problem, only to be stumped by another.
"Wouldn\'t it be better to free yourself earlier? Nothing will last longer than time." Even so-called love was the same.
"Time can heal everything."
Looking at her clear black and white eyes, Lu Yu didn\'t speak, but silently embraced her, holding her like a piece of driftwood.
In the days that followed, Gu Wan noticeably realized that Lu Yu seemed to be avoiding her, even appearing somewhat afraid of her, as if he feared she might actually produce something he couldn\'t possibly accept.
Even after the housekeeper and others returned, the irreparably broken printer in the study was never replaced with a new one.
At first, Gu Wan would occasionally try to persuade him, but as time went on, she grew tired of continuing to do so.
Gu Wan came to understand that if this situation truly developed to an unmanageable point, she would, at most, be slightly inconvenienced and troubled. As for other losses, there didn\'t seem to be much to speak of.
Thinking this way, Gu Wan gradually stopped caring. If Lu Yu himself wasn\'t worried, why should she bother?
Soon, Gu Wan returned to her previous idle lifestyle.
When she felt bored, she would go traveling. Occasionally, she would check on her stock investments and other business ventures. In the middle of the year, she would take a few accounting classmates to audit her family\'s beauty clinic, and collect another round of dividends. As for Lu Yu, when he came to find her, if she had time, she would play with him for a few days. If she was busy, she would just leave him to his own devices.
The housekeeper gradually noticed that after the New Year, the madam had completely stopped caring whether the master was happy or not. Everything was decided solely by the madam\'s own mood. When she was in a good mood, she would treat the master more gently. When she was in a bad mood, she found even looking at the master annoying, treating him as if he were at her beck and call. This was simply... simply not giving the master any consideration at all!
The housekeeper thought the master would be unhappy about this, but he wasn\'t. Each time, he acted as if nothing had happened, becoming increasingly cautious instead.
Take this time, for instance. It was their wedding anniversary, and the madam had promised to come back to celebrate, but...
Looking at the darkening sky, and then at the master who had been waiting from morning till night without the madam returning, the housekeeper couldn\'t help but sigh after a long while.
After a good while, Lu Yu\'s phone suddenly vibrated.
Lu Yu\'s heart leapt uncontrollably with joy, and he instinctively opened his phone to look. Soon, the smile froze on his face.
[Sorry, something came up. I won\'t be back tonight. You can eat the cake and stuff by yourself.]
A wedding anniversary was nothing more than a meaningless day anyway.
However, what Lu Yu didn\'t know was that on the other side, just a few minutes earlier, as Gu Wan had just opened her car door, a figure suddenly darted in.
Then came the scene of a large crowd of fans rushing into the underground parking lot.